8 YEARS or loving him!?(PLZ hlp me)?

ok look i have know this boy since kindergarden and i have liked him untill 6th grade whch is right now. I like him i stalked him. i know u may think this is weird but, i accidentall sniffed his clothes wen he wasn't at school from his locker cause i have his code. I love him so much i sing songs and he pops up in my mind at slow songs and rap songs. IDK wat to do and i have stoped likeing him a few times out of 8 years but, i keep going back to him. he got a girl friend who is must and she stink badly after gym cause she don't wear D.O and he stil like her. He even kissed her before and i get mad. me and him beef in the hall sometimes.I don't wanna be like the girl off obsessed. I know i'm gonna find true love but, i can't stop looking at him. sometimes i say to my friends i don't like him but, in my heart i keep liking him. Well thank you for reading it and i want your most powerfullest! advice.(thx)